January 06, 2017

bird set free

Assalamuaalaikum peeps!
*warning this post is going to be super long since i comprise all 6 month worth of story into one post huh*

Clipped wings, I was a broken thing
Had a voice, had a voice but I could not sing
You would wind me down
I struggled on the ground
So lost, the line had been crossed
Had a voice, had a voice but I could not talk
You held me down
I struggle to fly now

But there's a scream inside that we all try to hide
We hold on so tight, we cannot deny
Eats us alive, oh it eats us alive
Yes, there's a scream inside that we all try to hide
We hold on so tight, but I don't wanna die, no
I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die

And I don't care if I sing off key
I find myself in my melodies
I sing for love, I sing for me
I shout it out like a bird set free
Getting into architecture was like setting my self free. I've never been so free for so long. Im still grounded by religious rules but in terms of expressing myself, im more free :)

oh yeah, hi. Been in hiding for so long.

I promised myself to write more after becoming degree student but in turns out the opposite. Makin malas seyhhhhhh. Free time that i had either i will be scrolling on social media or SLEEP. SLEEP IS LIKE A GOLD FOR ME, HARD TO GET AND WELL HARD TO KEEP (during project submission/review)

So since i already submit everything (alhamdulillah, lega giler siyes siyes)  i got a handful of time before portfolio day (will tell about it at the end of my post)

Okay, so of course nak citer pasal life as an architecture student right? Basically we live the same as other student except we dont get sleep and we dont have lecture hall and we usually hungry 24 hours and we sometimes consider dawn as a sign for us to sleep.  And we don't care if we look like zombie , as long as we got the work done, we are pretty to each other (HAHAHA to this, i look like smashed cupcake after project submission and smelt like rotten sardine =_=)

Before that, let me start off with my orientation story. Well nothing interesting occur. One week long (cry cry gila lama sampai aku ponteng pegi ioi lulz haha).
At the end of our orientation week, we Get to know our faculty but not our faculty. Pinjam nama je padahal tempat lain. Our faculty is faculty of engineering and built environment. We are in tamhidi but our faculty is at faculty of science (pehe dok? pura2 paham je la uolz)

yup muka suci murni masih tidak mengenal erti seksa dan peritnya senibina hahaha. in front of our faculty but not our faculty (you still didnt get it ..)
pastu pastu , sending off goi (ex housemate) . She move to Pandan since she got dentistry like siyesly goi pehal jauh sangat.
since it is early in the morning, we send her off with our morning breath and bed face. Sorry goi haha!! 
 after that, minggu kuliah start! yesss my fav part.

I remember the first day as an archi student, I was super nervous and felt like first day at school kot!! rasa nak angkut ayah teman sekali . Tapi ofkos tu buang tebiat namanya. Alhamdulillah, Mimi ( Bestfriend time tamhidi) ada sekali, so the feeling simmered down ( a little huh)

Arriving at the fourth floor inside Tamhidi building ( ye aku masih di situ kawan2) , it was my second time there. First time datang time tu nak pinjam cellotape masa tamhidi (teringat time tu kelakar giler keyh, aku assume budak archi time tu mesti ada segalanya, which turn out to be true hahaa).

Getting inside a huge room with many drawing and house model terrified me like Do i need to draw that (there was an amazing horse drawing, gila aku nak lukis tu, omg)? Am i expected to build that huge forest plan? Should i touch that amazingly build house model?

So we walk around the huge room, with other first year ( aku rasa sebab dorang pun muka eksaited), checking out everything. Got one book with lots of drawing inside of it (lagi lah aku seram gitu), few sculpture that makes my mouth goes ooohhhhh ahhhh amazing amazing , in my mind can i change to foodbio please please, im scared... :P


And few moments later , we gathered together at the end of the room to do some briefing session.
There were two separated seating area. For girls and boys. We sit together with people that i dont know who but they look a bit matured and older and santai , so i assumed my senior la kot, takkan pekerja tamhidi pulak lol. They were laughing and chatting among each other, aku pulak macam cicak sesat dekat situ like should i play with my phone or start chatting with other people (aku know few people je since dekat tamhidi aku ni bukan peramah suka hello2 orang so batchmates sendiri tak kenal hahaha)

So i took another option and is to ushar the boys section(maigod gatal kau na) but i should know who i will be working with or crushing on .  tengok sekejap and lepas tu tak tengok sebab taknak buat dosa tenung anak teruna orang lama-lama hahaha  .
borak2 dengan mimi and an. Janna and ana and alia duk belakang aku (rasanya)
Then, the room become silence. I look in front and ohhh group of smart looking people came in . Of course this are the lecturers because they look muchh older than the seniors lulz and they look pretty serious.
The briefing start and i didnt focus much since i kept staring at the horse drawing behind them. still cant move on hahhahhaa. Then, there were small award ceremony centu kot. For those who manage to get dean list and improvement award bla,bla i don't know this people but well you are my idols now so better watch out coz i will be staring at you 24h (psiko siaaa).
Pastu ada briefing on PAM visits. Basically the first week there is no lecture or so on.
Free je. After the briefing session we are free to walk around. We got few task to do .
I'm not gonna explain all the details since aku buat apa je pun ahahah

 Happy face while downloading korean drama. Yelah tamhidi kan internet berdesup je
our cute studio master , Madam Elin. She taught us design, one of the core subject in archi

Our studio (ni 2 bulan lepas masuk. Gambar awal takdokkk)
Okay cuti aidiladha pun bermula right after my first week here. projek first. homemade a1 carrier apa tah yang patut aku panggil. Drawing bag rasanya. First task under graphic subject. Peh memandangkan aku terlalu enjoy cuti and makan daging lembu tanpa pikir projek, so hasilnya agak sedih dan boleh jadi stok gelak aku di kala kesunyian huhuuu.. AND TAKDE GAMBAR SEBAB AKU SEDIH DENGAN HASIL AKU SENDIRI LULZ. ( sepatutnya aku amik gambar , whatever the product i produced, still my product, my work, kena bangga , ish past nana is gedik sungguh)

pastu few days after that, got our first project for design. God , pening gila kot awal-awal dapat. Im a type of person who cant focus for so long. kena buat something nak distract diri. So, lepas je project briefing aku nganga like wut de hek, apa madam cakap tadi hahahaha . Lepas tu ada next briefing aku pegi JPJ lagi aku tak faham.Nasib grupmate ada fuuhhh. Oh ya, Alhamdulillah dah dapat lesen. Boleh dah aku challenge michael shumaccer (centu ke eja) drift dekat kampung batu muda ni. Konfem dia nangis tengok skil brek aku yang berpontensi menjahanamkan kereta.

Oh yeah back to the story, our first project is to design a vest and headgear based on master architect assigned to us. Aku dapat richard meier. i was like who de heck is this guy? So few weeks given to do background study on this guy. This guy is one of modern architect. boleh search sendiri hoho. Oh ya our first design project is a group work. So dapat grup dengan MImi (yeayy) pastu few people yang memang kenal (syaq, syera) orang baru (ana,aqeela iman, iffah dayat,hafiz). they were all amazing people. Sometimes aku ni kadang2 cam lembabs sikit tapi they are such nice person. sabar je. ish.

Design vest and headgear banyak kali kena rejek like aku dah give up nak hidup lulzz.

First time tidur lambat sampai 2-3 pagi, kepala aku sakit giler. Feel like exploded at any time. Ye lah newbie kan tak biasa tidur lambat. hhahaha

but the best part of this project is kitorang kena present projek ni dekat luar,bukan dekat studio. which means dapat jalan2!!! So kitorang present di janda baik. Janda baik one of the best memory time first sem. Siyes cakap. This are the time where we strengthen our bond and friendship. Starting to know my classmates more and MAKAN DURIAN BANYAK GILA. DURIAN FREE PULAK TU. GEESHHH. AND MAKAN SEDAP PULAK TU. KAWAN2 AKU SEBENARNYA BERBAKAT MASAK WEH. ZAUJ ZAUJAH GOALS BETUL.
And first time aku pergi kem yang santai and sempoi where our tentative tak ketat langsung . so much funnnnn. Sukati je kau nak terjun sungai bila. We explore few place and memang cantik-cantik belaka, subhanallah.



gigih do amik gambar tengah panas demi sebuah lighting yang menarik (ahhh aku still rupa cam ayam bakar bbq malam tu , waeee)

Okay before i went to Janda Baik, i participate in Pertandingan Pidato Dwibahasa, Time tu tak bizi sangat so aku curik sikit masa masuk pertandingan tu with my lovely ex hosmet , Ain. And unexpectedly Alhamdulillah i manage to get first place. Terkezut mak

muka masing2 eyebag tebal nak mati hahaha
Alhamdulillah, new experience for me. Tapi duit yang menang tu aku belanja macam kena rasuk. maigod lupa nak masuk dalam tabung kawen. nyesal nyesal

Pastu lepas gi janda baik, aku pergi MY FIRST CONCERT. YE VERY FIRST. DEKAT USIM (tu yang takleh blah). anjuran iceps. ada FAIZALL TAHIRRRRRR (FANGIRL GILER), HYPERACT (MAIGOSHHH TIME PERSEMBAHAN DORANG AKU BOLEH PULAK SAKIT PERUT. WHY~~) , ramli sarip (dia puisi weh, puisiiiiii), voice of color (sort of like acapella group centu, im amazeee), and manyy more. Went to the concert with my roomate. Good thing about this concert is girls and boys section are seperated. That's how all concert should be. Yes we do sing along together with the singer but not loud enough for the opposite sex to hear. But the boys bila Wanie (yang nyanyi dgn juzzthin tu apa tah lagu dia)ada ,laki kemain over noks. Aku tampar sekoq sekoq sedap gak haha.
with le roomates. This concert were impromptu decision lol. from left mili, NANA GOJES, kirin and tempe eh Mira hahaah
okay dah dah lettuwww enjoy.  proceed to our second project which is Mashrabiya. This project is quite interesting since this is my first time hearing such word. What is Mashrabiya? go search for urself. aku malaszz
ye la aku explain. Mashrabiya tu actually came from arabs and use as sort of protection gitu , to protect from dust and as air regualator gitu. Juga sesuai untuk rumah yang ada perempuan tinggal. Menjaga maruah centu. okay kenapa aku type dalam nada malas ni haahaha.
The word "mashrabiya" comes from an Arabic root meaning the "place of drinking," which was adapted to accommodate the first function of the screen: "the place to cool the drinking water."- SOURCE
This project is also a group work. My team members are Mimi (again lol jodoh game is strong right here) and Acap . Alhamdulillah one month and a half working with them is amazing. Everyone contribute each to their part and of course there were bumps in working together but the end product is a proud moment for us .

 2 am and still smiling. do i look like neelofa from top? 
(picture taken by madam wan, my awhsome lecturer , she is such a goallsss)

awkward-didnt-get-enough-sleep-kinda-look. Senyum paksa habis hahaha
I suppose i had the full image of the mashrabiya but never mind (too lazy to transfer) . But people were afraid of our mashrabiya like wut de hek? is not a killer mashrabiya. yeah we had pointy and sharp mashrabiya screen but it is innovative and no other people do it like us so , er, nice la kan?

Okay we have done our second project. During second project, i got a super huge news. I was chosen as one of the construction worker for Solar Decathlon Middle East Competition in dubai. USIM are the only university in Malaysia selected to be in the final round (UTM as partner since usim is still new to this competition). Here is the funny part, Madam Elin, she asked in our group wassap " does anyone interested in cooking and willing to cook?"
No one give their name and i was like "MAIGOODDD I LOVE COOKINGGGG YESHH THIS IS THE TIME I WILL UNLEASH MY TALENT IN RUINING DISHES"
so i give my name. She need only 3 name. So 2 others follow my step afterward.
What i didnt know is, the cooking team is needed for the competition in Dubai ,2018. So, basically i was chosen to cook for the team (alhamdulillah, i hope they didnt get food poisining tu jewwww)
For me it is funny since i thought madam need that name i dont know for me to cook for her kenduri ke or nanti ada pertandingan masak ke, but it is bigger than that. thanks madam for the opportunity :)))))

Hai, im aina, ur future baju korporat model ( this picture was taken for sdme profile)
Alright moving on to our last design project, SHELTER FOR TRAVELER. One of my fav task!!! This task required us to design shelter (smaller than regular home). i mean this is the reason im signing up for architecture. designing home bebehhhhh
Before we start designing, first the site of our shelter. Yeah of course we need site. or else where our house going to sit? takkan terapung pulak (why suddenly emo nana lol)

so we went to our first site visit. The site visit is interesting since site tu dalam usim je ahahha. Next to Faculty of Economy and Muamalat. Got huge lake and small forest . I was shock yelah never thought usim is that huge siap ada taman negara sendiri hahaha



Guys whats up with the awkward pose hahahaahahaha (my friends are funny people )

 Clear and pristine looking lake. Goodjob usim for taking care of it very well.

Me looking super serious. actually i was drawing some tree and it look really weird (duh talentless nana). My friend face looks like he was holding his fart for so long. Dude just release it, this forest is huge, no one going to hear it (except me coz im behind him). okay friend im kidding im kidding. 
 This project took around 2 month and more , maybe. sorry im bad with date. (and dating too)
We need to study our concept for this shelter, our client characteristic and many more.

In between that, i also need to juggle with my additional subject which is co-Curriculum , english debate. The final project are toughest one. We need to find money on our own since usim didnt give us single cent. Soooo many things happen, i cried a lot (since im the leader for this final project,so the burden is bigger) but alhamdulillah with the help of other members of the team, i managed to surpass all that, and we managed to do our fp with a Bangggg.
lol akak2 muka lagi happy ni pehal hahaha . These kids are from Baitul Mahabbah. Click on the link to know more about them :) Alhamdulillah amazing experience

Okay we also had a faculty dinner. Yeah my first dinner during degree. I wore make up that night (wore everyday to class but this one with eyeshadow and blusher and everything so its kinda rareeeee). Im so excited. Put my high heels on (wedges actually but who caresss), and blouse like neelofa gitu, off we go to nilai convention hall (kot i cant remember haha) . Buttttt when i arrive there, cam sedih sikit sebab duduk hujung huhuhu ( jauh dari meja buffet tu yang sedih haahahha).
Alhamdulillah still enjoying it with silent comedy (weh senior aku kelakar, nak kenal boleh pm haha)
and dikir barat (perfomed by our lovely younger family member, engineering student, newest course here in usim). there was some award ceremony and guess what, i didnt get anyhting hahaha. not even lucky draw. whyyyyyy (takpela at least kenyang sobs sobs)
 you cant see my makeup yallzz since it melts away due to long walking from bus to the dinner venue ahhahaha . (and i didnt bring the makeup with me so i was bare face the whole night)

 my pretty friend (except me , i look like sweating cat here, panas weh, aircond mana aircondddd)
 In early December, we got anak angkat program. Okay this one pun best jugakkkk. Program under FKAB. Area jolobu , negeri sembilan .
It was my first time there. venue in kampung area (tapi still ada line. thanks umobile!!)
i got pair of grandparent as my family angkat and all i can say is , they are like my blood and flesh wehhh. they treat me nicely (along with my other 'sisters' haha). They feed me very very very well kot (dorang risau kitorang lapar, there was never the time we are hungry. kenyang all day)

with my tok and wan. Ugghhh miss them. Havent contact them for so long. jahatnya aku
with my sisterssssss. i swear theyre nicest and happiest people ever. from left syera and kak nana.(nama sama dengan aku, bila orang panggil dia, kadang2 aku terperasan, hmm malu siot ahhaa) 


 my first time hiking (Bukit batu sawa) and all i can say is CRAZYYYYYY . GILAAAA SUSAH NAK PANJAT GOSH I REALLY APPRECIATE THE COMFORT OF MY LIFE RIGHT NOW. oh yeah, im the last one to arrive. But they are all supportive. the senior, my friends, even pakcik renjer hutan tu pun gila support gila2. i like i like. ( in this picture me and janna)
Alhamdulillah the experience in Jelebu was so nice. I love it so much :") rasa tak nak balik weh ngadap projek. makan ayam masak lemak cili api hari2 pun takpe.

okay back to reality, struggling to finish our last project which contribute 60% to our mark. huge kannn (under subject design)
Yada yada, submitting my design and getting rejected. consultation and redesign everything. Changing concept and everything. I felt the pressure and almost break down. But i said to myself " you have choosen this path, so put your heads up, get tough and move. there is no time for you to relax or taking ur sweet time"

Sometimes i wondered to myself, what if i didnt choose architecture, then what will i do, what happen to me, am i going to experienced the same thing i do in archi?
I believe whatever Allah give me right now have it own reason. Right now im more relax and feeling more happier.

okay sorry for the random rambling.

Before we submit our final project, we went to another site visit (under construction and technology subject).
we went to parliament renovation site. The interior design inside is breathtakingly mesmerizing. but we cant take picture inside unless it is authorize so takpela huhu

 with all of my classmates. everyone have their own unique characteristic and attitude . thats what i love about them. 

with our tour guide (2 kids gaiz, 2)

2 days after our site visit, it is project submission day!!

the picture are all inside my phone and all i can say for my project submission is RELIEVEEEEEEEEEE.

i want to continue writing but this post took me around 2 days to write since imma lazy girl hahaha. So thats all maybe. will be continue after i came back from my holiday, (which 2 weeks after that)

thank you for reading this post and please dont judge my silly writing because this is my style and i would like to keep it that way. Im not exposing my privacy or whatsoever but i believe my blog as sort of my personal journey diary (my instagram too).. so thats why i put lot of picture . maybe my children will read this blog and will say " omg my mom is such a weird person "
eh okay taknak bagi anak baca la. malu siot


adios :)

August 23, 2016

3 potato is needed to kill ur enemy

assalamuaalaikum uolzzzz


Tajuk takde kena mengena dengan post. Aku terbayang kan diri aku ni ibarat potato. so the real meaning behind the sentence is all you need is 3 person like me to kill ur enemy. faham tak?
lantakla. aku merapu apa pun tak tau. terlebih makan biskut raya expired kot.


I JUST WANT TO INFORM PEOPLE OUT THEREEEEE THAT I PASSED MY QTI SO YEAH BUKAN JPJ BUT I STILL WANT TO SCREAM OUT LOUD BECAUSE IM JUST ONE STEP AWAY FROM BECOMING A LEGAL DRIVER (sebenarnya aku dah lama drive illegally around my taman, takpelah kannn)

reasonnya begini, aku ambik satu kelas tambahan sebelum repeat qti tu. Dapat cikgu yang lain (bukan yang ngajar aku ) sebab tak cukup cikgu time tu. Tinggal cikgu tu sorang. Aku pun tak kesah laaaa. TAPI AKU BERSYUKUR GILAAAAAAAAAAAAA SEBAB DIA AJAR BEST LIKE SERIOUSLY AKU TERUS BOLEH DRIVE CONFIDENTLY LEPAS TUUUUUUUUUU. Memang takdir Allah yang terindah (ayat over haha) .Nama cikgu tu cikgu nordin. If anyone nak apply for kelas memandu dekat IMKL (institut memandu kuala lumpur) , tanya je nak cikgu nordin ajar. Dia ajar best sangat, super detail, very fatherly gitu ahahah. dia seriau tengok aku drive (sebab aku drive macam jalan tu aku yang punya huahuahua) so dia ajar satu-satu, in two hours everything look super clear to meeee. Aku macam, elehh driving ni takdela scary sangat when you overcome the fear and the driving teacher itself is super awesome haha :D alhamdulillah. so since that, bila nak drive dekat-dekat macam pegi kedai or rumah umi aku, aku yang drive (accompanied by my sister). Dia jugak salah seorang ticer aku yang awesome. Walaupun dia selalu jerit setiap kali aku buat salah ( ngeri ok jeritan dia, nasib aku tak brek emergency haha), jeritan dia yang buat aku berhati-hati setiap kali drive (so that i dont need to hear her piercing scream haha)

So mohon doa readers sekalian moga-moga aku lulus JPJ aku hujung bulan ni :) [kalau ada yang read la hoho]

*oh yeah terima kasih jugak dekat cikgu driving aku 10 jam , cikgu zaitun. Thanks sebab suruh saya sentiasa rileks time memandu yelah saya ni kaki gelabah sikit, papehal asyik tekan brek. sakit leher cikgu :') maaf sekali lagi hoho
bersama cikgu aku yang kuat jerit haha. kualiti gambar horror sebab orang dalam gambar pun horror!! *kidding sis jangan belasah sayaaa*
tapi gambar dengan cikgu nordin and cikgu zaitun takdelah pulak ahahha. tak sempat nak selfie pulak. habis drive turun keta terus blah lol.


okay enough about driving. aku nak citer pasal result degree pulak!!

yaw yaw okay guys ofkoz as you all know UPU result keluar dua minggu lepas. tapi aku tak cek result through UPU system. Instead aku just go by usim punya sistem since aku apply usim je haha (sobs sobs lol)

guess what aku dapat?? drum rolls peepleeeee,
okay takyah hidela, aku dapat architecture. wehehuuuu , alhamdulillah. *confetti flying everywhereeee*

Sebenarnya aku tak terkejut sangat, in fact aku dah prepare untuk jerit IN CASE aku tetiba dapat science computer yang aku taknak tuuuuuuuuuuu (aku tak tahu apa yang rasuk aku sampai jari aku tetiba letak sc comp no.2 dalam choice. are you crazyyyyyy nanana??)
kisahnya begini..
archi aku letak no.3 . mula-mula no.2 aku letak tapi entah macam mana tetiba angin ILOVEYOUSCIENCECOMPUTERMUAHHH aku pergi replace archi dengan science comp. Yelah sebab dulu aku ada lah main dengan code-code bagai (padahal basic giler-giler, alaaa kalau nak replace quotebox dgn kotak warna warni pakai code ni, nak bagi nampak kemas blog, twerk la code code yang panjang gila dekat template, itupun guided by tutorial)
so terinspirasi laaa. sebaik sahaja tamat tarikh tempoh nak isi pilihan course, terdetik di hatikuu (ecehh) nak tengok course outline untuk sc comp. Bila aku tengok jeeeeee, ohmegerddddddddddddddd MATH! MATH EVERYWHERE. MATHHHHH MATHHHH GOD NO PLIZZ NO
me in math

I mean yeah you're pursuing your study in science and technology field, math memangla kena ada kan. Takleh lari. There is noother way around. Tapi memang course ni banyak math. CALCULUS I AND II. BASIC CALCULUS AKU PUN SENDU JEEEEEE HAHAHA

So aku risau sangattt. terus lenyap impian terhapus terpadam semuaalaa. Aku start risau. First choice aku food biotech. Aku jadi seriau. Dapat ke? Lagi aku risau, course outline, belajar fizik and kimia dulu for first and second year. bio starting 2nd sem third year rasanyaaa.. and aku letak foodbio first hanya sebab aku suka makanan!! lol. and major reason sebab fourth year ada baking hahahah

And then, tiba-tiba, result utk interview keluar, aku dpt iv archi (dekat usim sesape yang letak archi dalam pilihan akan dipanggil iv)
Aku macam berbelah bahagi. patut ke tak pergi. Yelah minat tu so-so je mula-mula. Aku rasa patut ke aku pergi sedangkan aku ni takde bakat melukis (sebab mostly orang yang aku kenal yang nak pursue architecture ada talent in drawing. aku lukis so-so je. idokla teman boleh lukis potret muka kak mah or lukis ala-ala picasso, drawing simple-simple bolehlaaa)

So aku pun tanya kawan/housemate/counselor aku , ain. Dia dapat jugak iv tu tapi hati dia betul-betul dekat foodbio. Sebelum tu dia dah research banyak dah. Cuma lepas bla bla (takleh bagitahu kena mintak izin dia dulu haha), she decided to not to go to the iv.
Aku tanya jugak pendapat dia semua, dia kata go for it. Dia sorang je yang aku tanya pendapat masalahnya hahaha parents kakak semua tahu lambat. Ain banyak bantu bagi info and dia punya encouragement tu sangat2 membangkitkan semangat gituuuuuu. And aku buat istikharah dalam beberapa kali (to be exact 1 kali je hahha teruk betul kau ni :P, and berdoa moga betul apa yang aku buat ni,) aku pergi jugak iv tu.

Aku pergi dengan preparation yang sikit je. Okay aku dah citer pengalaman iv tu haha so malas nak flashback.

Balik tu aku banyak buat research. Walaupun masih lagi belum konfem dapat tapi aku ada instinct aku bakal dapat (juga disebabkan percentage utk dapat course tu 90% sebab dia fakulti baru haha)
aku search Apa benda yang bakal aku hadapi , workload dia, cabaran dia. Takut bila baca sebab mak aih ngerinya  bila penulis blog kata dia tak cukup tidur ( i love sleep bebeh) pastu idea di reject (takleh bayang, maybe aku bakal nangis bawah tangga haha), and orang drop course ni sebab tak boleh bawak ( ni adalah my biggest nightmare).

Moga aku kuat kalau aku berhadapan dengan benda2 yang diatas masa time belajar nanti.
Dia kata tak minat bahaya kalau amik course ni, aku pun alamak. Aku minat je things involving designing things and creating something new and useful for others. it just that archi is not the first thing that popped into my mind. Yang masuk dalam otak aku adalah graphic designer and sc comp(fuh lega tak dapat haha).
lol aku dah cukup selekeh, i dont need architecture to mess it up for me more :P


And sebenarnya aku pun tak tahu apa yang aku nak. Sedihkan. Aku pun sedih dengan diri sendiri haha :') Kadang-kadang aku terlalu kejar sesuatu (undang2 :/) bilamana aku tak dapat, sedih sangat . Impian yang kita simpan sejak form 5 (takdelah lama mana haha) , yang telah ditarget, yang kita sentiasa angan-angankan tiba-tiba just came crushing on me. Tak dapat tu sedih tapi entahlah aku macam dah takde perasaan.
Aku cuma pegang yang apa pun doa pada Allah, sentiasa doa, moga diberi yang terbaik.Aminn

aminnnnn 
-gambar pakai tudung kuning diraja. gila time ni dari jauh boleh nampak kalau pakai haha. tamhidi memori sobbssss sobsss


Bila teringat time zaman awal sekolah menengah aku nak sangat jadi geologis. U know, yang kaji bumi, tanah, batu-batu semua tu. Sebab terpengaruh dengan discovery channel. Seronok je dia duk kaji semua. Cita2 tu yang mendorong aku nak ambik aliran sains. Tapi bila masuk je aliran sains, *insert depressed emoji *bkkkk dalam tv je nampak mudah. proses dia payahhhhhh . So berubah la cita-cita aku nak jadi lawyer (sebab aku suka berdebat, being analytical, bercakap dekat depan----aku rasa dengan kriteria tu aku patut jadi lawyer lol). boleh macam tu ekkk hahaha

Tapi cita-cita aku time darjah 6 lagi power, nak jadi fashion designer. Aku siap buat komik wehhh, komik pasal fashion designer yang bermula dari bawah. Gigih tak gigih hahaha. Tapi bila tengok design aku dulu-dulu, buruk gilaaaa. darah mata tengok. dahla design seksi nak mati. jahil betul aku dulu. nasib baik kau tak jadi fashion designer mek na weh ahhhaha

so conclusion sebenarnya, cita-cita aku yang sebenarnya adalah nak kawen dengan CEO, dapat anak ramai and happy ending sambil naik ferrari bayar cash.hahaha. Semua salah pengaruh novel. haa yang tu tak penah berubah. dulu sampai sekarang aku gila baca novel. Tapi masalahnya nak beli novel kena ada duit. Duit nak dapat kena kerja.Nak kerja kena ada qualification. Nak ada qualification, kenalah belajar. Masalahnya arah tuju pun aku still blur hahaha . Penutup aku mereput bawah selimut foreber je laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa


adios

p/s: banyak lagi nak bebel tapi penat aihh. Typing ni penat okay tapi penat lagi suka dengan orang yang tak pernah perasan diri kita. (pehal emo tetiba hhaaha)





August 01, 2016

Aku ni spongebobbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb

assalamuaalaikum peeps!

Sudah lama tidak bersua muka, bercerita dari hati ke hati, meluah rasa (erkkk rasa macam blog hakak-hakak pulak)

So aku bizi menguruskan rumah and i dont have much time writing (ada je masa but u know typing needs energy and energy are obtainable by eating and eating took a lot of time and theennnn i need to wash the plate and then i need to this and that and bla bla so tak sempat tulis) #alasanmuch

Aku juga bizi memikirkan macam mana nak habiskan kelas memandu. Like seriyesly aku rasa dah macam spongebob hokayyy. dua tahun dah aku duk bizi ulang alik ke sekolah memandu tak reti reti jugak driving. Kawan aku baru je cuti gap start sekejap dia dah habis amik lesen. dua tahun aku wehhhhhhhh. Aku kena sumpahan kewwwwww?!!?
Driving terrifies me a lotttttt. I don't know why but yeah every time i pressed the gas pedal, my heart skips a beat. Takut gerun macam aku nak drive F1 je tolonglah nana plis kau ni gedik je lebih
Tapi aku cuba jugak lawan rasa takut tu. Entah apa yang aku takut pun tak tahulah

Kawan aku sampai marah sebab lama sangat belajar padahal kereta je. Bukan belajar bawak lori pun (aku rasa kalau bawak lori mau 10 tahun baru habis ambik lesen)
Aku selalu doa moga Allah beri aku banyak kekuatan. Yelah tangguh tangguh amik lesen duit habis mengalir laju ibarat hingus adik kau (omaigod takleh geli lagi ke comparison)

lepastu, Qti gagal haritu. Aku rasa nak bom semua kereta-kereta dkt situ huahauahahuu. Aku rasa okay dah (sebenarnya tak okay, kereta aku semput time naik bukit//parking hancur aku bantai putar je stereng mana-mana yg aku nak//sebelum jalan raya aku nak drive, lupa turun hand brake, habis kereta mati banyak kali, cikgu dekat sebelah jeling keluar api woooo, dia marah lagi peh pedas woo aku rasa nak giveup drive keta tu terjun jambatan je  )

Tapi takpelah harap aku lebih berani lepas ni.

nah alunan biola kecik mr,crab utk kau nana mengenangkan betapa sadisnya kisah driving kau
Okaylah tu je aku nak cerita. Nak tulis resepi (cuti ni banyak cuba resepi baru. yeay!) tapi malas lol. Aku dah imagine dah setiap resepi baru aku buat (and menjadi) aku post dkt blog tapi dah nama imagination, ianya kekal dalam otak aku sorang. So bye

eh

adios

p/s: dh tukar blog banner (again :] )

June 14, 2016

On sahur, interview and life

Assalamuaalaikum to all my lovelies out thereeeeeee

Aku tak tahu nak tulis apa. Like seriyesllllyyyy. Lama jugak aku duk tenung skrin laptop ni. Hasilnya, rabun silau aku maybe naik lagi. Yeay.

So bila dah tenung tu idea mai sikit sikit dan yeshhh inilah hasilnya. Aku akan tulis apa yg aku buat untuk dapatkan apa yang aku tulis sekarang.
Faham tak? Tak faham , makan banyak sikit kurma ya dik. (aaa jahatnya aku)

So post ni sebenarnya bertujuan nak wish SELAMAT MENYAMBUT KEDATANGAN RAMADHAN. 
Walaupun dah 7 hari berlalu sebenarnya tapi so whatttttt.

Moga di bulan mulia ni bertambah amalan kita dan terhindar dari dosa maksiat. Harapnya aku and anda semua jadi lebih baik dari sebelum ni. Inshallah


Okay now moving on to another topic. Entah la aku pun tak tahu nak type apa. Hidup aku bukan menarik sangat untuk diterjemahkan dalam bentuk cerita (peh BM A+++++)
Aku pun terpikir gak macam mana la blogger2 femes boleh come up dengan citer2 menarik. Ok mostly dorang update pasal daily life je. Their daily life sama je dengan semua orang tapi entah la cara dorang tulis kot??? So orang tertarik nak baca. Maybe aku boleh je tulis daily life denga ayat yang bombastik gittuh. (Blogpost sebelum ni pun pasal hidup aku je hahaha)

okay let me try

Pada hari ini saya telah memulakan hari saya dengan bangun pada pukul 4.45 pagi untuk bersahur. yeay. susah nak bangun awal camtu kalau bukan Ramadhan. Achievement yang patut diumumkan pada rakyat jelata. Okay dengan air liur bertepek dan rambut ibarat sarang anak burung yang comel, *sungguh tak lawa , harap zauj terima iolz seadanya* saya turun ke tingkat bawah untuk menyiapkan sahur. Singgah sebentar ke sinki untuk bersihkan muka supaya ahli keluarga saya tak terkejut melihat wajah saya ibarat rumah tak siap. And saya pun bertungkus lumus di dapur menyiapkan lebih 5 jenis lauk-pauk ibarat kenduri kawen anak cik kiah yang baru balik dari obersi. okay saya tipu je. Saya panaskan lauk dari peti ais je. But this is internet. Orang percaya je :p

Pastu makan la, pe lagi. Takkan berjoget dalam dapur tu. Muka semua sememeh je, mata tak boleh bukak. Tapi mulut bergerak,licin satu pinggan. Power power.

Habis makan , kemas meja. Naik atas prepare untuk subuh, tadarus sikit sikit. Pastu termenung sampai matahari naik thennn boomm landing on my sweet sweet pillow (kena tidur dalam pukul 8 gitu so takdelah tidur lepas subuh. iols tidur lepas dhuha. gittu. #cheatcode)

Bangun dalam waktu sekian sekian (takleh mention pukul berapa, future mother in law baca, habis kena reject), mandi then termenung lagi. Turun bawah angkat baju, sapu sapu rumah sikit. Bukak tv, 'eh HBO ada citer best'. Tengok la sambil mengenangkan apehal la hidup aku tak se-best movie. Berangan mode activated.

Asar pun tiba. Naik solat, habis solat rajin baca maasurat, kalau tak termenung jap. Then, papa balik.
Turun bawah hidang lauk. On tv, duhhh, ada citer melayu cintan-cintun geli geli rasa nak bagi menyepak. Tapi petang mana ada citer best. So stick jelah dengan citer melayu cintan cintun tu. 
Tiba-tiba iklan rasmi sebelum azan start. Shoossshhh cepat cepat amik pinggan isi nasik bagai.
Pastu duduk depan pinggan sambil doa. ( Antara waktu mustajab berdoa adalah sebelum waktu berbuka ;))

~Allahuakbar allahuakbar

Alamak dah azan!! Minum separuh gelas air, eh kurma tak makan lagi. Lol.
Pastu melantak ibarat dugong keletihan berenang di lautan atlantik. Azam kurus Ramadhan hilang, yang muncul hanyalah lelemak degil.  

Burpp kenyang. Dah pukul 8. Alamakk. Maghrib belum solat. Lari macam hape. Dah la baru tambah lemak. Tak pasal gegaran 1.5 skala richter terhasil.

Pastu pi terawih. Terawih lapan. Dari awal Ramadhan terpikir nak upgrade jadi 12 ke 14 ke. Tapi dah namanya malas sooooooooooo ..

Balik rumah. Ahhhhh. Ada kuih lebih time berbuka. Takleh bazir. Dosaaaaa. So melantak pe lagi.
Kenyang masuk bilik pastu menyesal sorang sorang sebab makan banyak gila. Terus berazam nak kurussss!!! Bukak fb , page siakap keli post cara cara nak kurus time Ramadhan. Gigih tengok. Tiba-tiba mata kuyu. Bumm. Tidur.

Tamat sudah kisah saya.

Well lepas ni konpem aku blur nak post apa since my daily life consist of SAME thing over and over again. Well aku ada je buat biskut raya, masak untuk berbuka tapi tu jela. haha. My life is awhsomeee (not). Maybe awhsome untuk bebudak sekolah yang kena sekolah time ramadhan while I'm enjoying my sweet sweet time by my self.

Okay done rambling about this . Aku nak cakap pasal Interview Senibina haritu. Okay jap jap
TEMUDUGA SENIBINA USIM

i did that so if anybody are searching for that, my blogpost will come up. #bijaktakkkkkkkkkkk

I was daunted by my iv . !!
There are two parts of the interview.

the first one is okay je. Lukis lukis tu okay je. Lukisan aku , suprisingly turn out nice. I was expecting some kind of 4-year old drawing ke pe. But it looks 3D and realistic. Bolehla hahah.
but no shading. Aku tak pandai. Lol. Tengok kiri kanan semua buat shading!! gila ah. Aku nak shade jadi buruk gila. Last last aku biar je.

Second part, The interview with the lecturer yang buat aku jadi macam, blerghhh.
Since I'm kinda nervous and under-prepared, agak terabur apa yang aku jawab. Mixing up English and Malay. Aku konfius dia nak aku cakap melayu ke english so otak aku jammed. haahaha
Dah la interview dengan lagi sorang budak lelaki. Dia cakap banyakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk gila. And apa yang aku nak cakap dia dah cakap dulu, so, aku termangu ibarat badak sumbu kiut dalam bendang. Otak aku takde idea . Last-last aku sengih je and angguk-angguk. Ha cakaplah kau puas puas. Aku pun dah blur tahap macam apa dah. Tahu tahu dah habis.
Tapi apa yang aku ingat, lecturer tu cakap " See you in September".
Errrr. Aku tak tahu dia refer dekat aku or budak laki tu. sooo...

Well tu jelah cerita saya hari ni. Gotta keep up like this
Tapi post ni je dua hari aku amik masa nak tulis. You see, i always take my sweet time. haha

k adios