April 26, 2016

Finish My foundation level? ✔

Assalamuaalaikum dear readers (if i have one, god knows how long i didn't update my blog, i can see dust and yeah some spiders here and there...)

so i have finished my foundation level. ALHAMDULILLAH IVE NEVER FELT SO RELIEVED IN MY LIFEEEEEEEEEE😄😄😄

and u know what? i kinda miss my tamhidi. Yup . missing those long hours lecture and torturing tutor class (cause i didnt finish my homework) , super packed surau with weird smell, delicious finger licking good foods served at pakcik sado's cafe(really delish, i swearrr. they are the reason i fell asleep in physics lecture. those calories packed nasi lemak. nyumzz😋😋 ), my super super gempak hottest lectures who teach us not to hate Science (I started to fall in love with Science again after they showed  us what science  is really about , Biology is da bestt😍 ), my lovable but sometimes annoying (but i love nonetheless) classmates (dude they are like the best classmates everrrrrr) *reminiscing moments in PD* , my KKNC cafe (Let me scream CHEAPPPPPP in ur ear) , and last but not least my HOUSEMATESSS LIKE SERIOUSLY THEY ARE THE REASON I DONT STAB MYSELF TO DEATH THE SECOND WEEK IM HERE IN TAMHIDI (literally lah ofkos becoz tamhidi was so stressful and they kinda help me get through it with their stupid jokes and deeeeeep advices).

so let me get this straight ya fellas, if u wanted to get in the foundation level for the sake of "look at me im in foundation , i get into degree faster than everyone, im in university dah gaizzz,im super-super  bijak like seriyesly u shud consider me as your daughter in law .. eh"
pliz dont. no . foundation is hard. it is tough. it is like what to choose to wear on ur first meeting with your future family in law. that tough (not a very good comparison but i cannot come up with another).
with assignment on ur hands ,tutor works on ur shoulder and lab report waited to be finish , you just sit in front of your study table with a huge smile plastered on ur face, looking like a fool. Slowly throwing urself on the floor with a dramatic yelppppp and ur housemates called the felo. The very next day , you are admitted to a nearest asylum. happy ending. Not

Well the level of stress kit is actually depending on the duration of the foundation level itself. Here in USIM, you got urselves only less than a year to prove that u can study one week before the finals. *not me hiks 💩 *
Other place such as UIA, some of them got one year, some got year and a half. some got two. how? go ask them urself ler.
im USIMIAN okkayyzzz (do weird duckface pose)

I remember in first semester, I CRIED A LOTTTTT LIKE A BABY ONLY THIS TIME A BABY WITH 18 YEARS OLD FACE. IT IS TORTURING AND I REMEMBER RECEIVING MY FIRST MIDSEM RESULT, I PURPOSELY RUN DIRECTLY INTO A MOVING BUS . U KNOW I RATHER DIE THAN FACING THIS INSANE THING. but then i remember that i still have My God. Allah the Almighty. The best listener. The Greatest Lover. So i divert myself from the moving bus (well the bus is actually 500 metres away from me so yeah is not that extreme act.)
And i move myself to the sejadah. Yep best choice everrr. I push myself very hard after that. Alhamdulillah. No repeat paper (cannot say the same for the sec sem. hoping for the best🙇🙇 )

and then here comes the sec sem. Where in first sem i learned how to cope with the pressured way of learning in foundation level, in sec sem i learned a so much more than the first. I learned how to debate (i never knew i could debate. well not as good as Syed Saddiq but i can talk hahah) , i learned about friendships (I LOVE THEM SO MUCH. SERIOUSLY THEY ARE THE BEST THINGS EVER HAPPEN TO ME 😢😢😀☺😊 *after my friendship with qo izzah n haira*) I discovered love (never knew this cold hearted creature could love someone that much. i love him. but u know one sided love as usual . never confess coz im a good muslimah liddat. steering myself away from couple/lover and being comfortable in friendship zon. kah!) and most importantly discovering myself. never knew im this crazy. yeappppppppppp. i let myself loose here in tamhidi kot. GILA GILA i tell ya. no longer uptight weird not so talkative Akak pengawas/badar/senior. im a whole new me. (okay not that new it just that i stop being a control freak like before)
looking back myself in the past, gosh super different. Me in form five are so different with me in Tamhidi. In school i got so much responsibilty on my shoulder that it tied me up real tight. Leaving me with only a small room just to let me breath.Juggling with responsibility as a Prefect (dont be a prefect for the sake of diff. color uniform. white is cool k) as BADAR leader ( alhamdulillah for this opportunity. Being a badar taught me a lot 😢😢😢 ) and akak senior (dont start with " akak buat boleh kenapa saya tak boleh" . that's why i always keep myself in check so that my junior didn't do thing that causes trouble becoz it will cause me some great pain in the butt trouble too. i wanted to be the best role model for them but i can't becoz i wasn't born with a good girl package okay hahaha sometimes i just go with the flow lulss. kau pepandai la survive dik oi.)

But that what makes me now. All those thing shaped me, nurturing good values inside me that help me to survive . U see, when you're in Tamhidi, ure on ur own. no teacher are going to scold u if u didnt wear your tie becoz u dont have uniform kott (best part of uni life), no akak badar going to lecture u about ikhtilat if u go out with your bae (if u have a strong iman and principle, not even a cute boy with dimples can shake ur belief) and ur parents are far away from u. U got ur phone with you and no need to hide it behind the locker. YOU ARE ALONEEEEEE FACING UP A NEW WORLD. SCARY KOTTT TAPI TEKANAN ZAMAN SEKOLAH TULAH YANG BANTU KAU AGAR TAK TERSASAR JAUHHHHHH. I love u my school 🍪🍪🍪 k tetiba kan

im getting sleepy now. it is 4.30 in the morning. i know. eye bag. yeah at least mine is prada.. urs are fake. DUH I NEED SLEEP

ive got a load of story to be told but u know i got 5 months off so no worries kkkkkk

adios