*warning this post is going to be super long since i comprise all 6 month worth of story into one post huh*
Clipped wings, I was a broken thing
Had a voice, had a voice but I could not sing
You would wind me down
I struggled on the ground
So lost, the line had been crossed
Had a voice, had a voice but I could not talk
You held me down
I struggle to fly now
But there's a scream inside that we all try to hide
We hold on so tight, we cannot deny
Eats us alive, oh it eats us alive
Yes, there's a scream inside that we all try to hide
We hold on so tight, but I don't wanna die, no
I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die
And I don't care if I sing off key
I find myself in my melodies
I sing for love, I sing for me
I shout it out like a bird set free
Getting into architecture was like setting my self free. I've never been so free for so long. Im still grounded by religious rules but in terms of expressing myself, im more free :)
oh yeah, hi. Been in hiding for so long.
I promised myself to write more after becoming degree student but in turns out the opposite. Makin malas seyhhhhhh. Free time that i had either i will be scrolling on social media or SLEEP. SLEEP IS LIKE A GOLD FOR ME, HARD TO GET AND WELL HARD TO KEEP (during project submission/review)
So since i already submit everything (alhamdulillah, lega giler siyes siyes) i got a handful of time before portfolio day (will tell about it at the end of my post)
Okay, so of course nak citer pasal life as an architecture student right? Basically we live the same as other student except we dont get sleep and we dont have lecture hall and we usually hungry 24 hours and we sometimes consider dawn as a sign for us to sleep. And we don't care if we look like zombie , as long as we got the work done, we are pretty to each other (HAHAHA to this, i look like smashed cupcake after project submission and smelt like rotten sardine =_=)
Before that, let me start off with my orientation story. Well nothing interesting occur. One week long (cry cry gila lama sampai aku ponteng pegi ioi lulz haha).
At the end of our orientation week, we Get to know our faculty but not our faculty. Pinjam nama je padahal tempat lain. Our faculty is faculty of engineering and built environment. We are in tamhidi but our faculty is at faculty of science (pehe dok? pura2 paham je la uolz)
yup muka suci murni masih tidak mengenal erti seksa dan peritnya senibina hahaha. in front of our faculty but not our faculty (you still didnt get it ..)pastu pastu , sending off goi (ex housemate) . She move to Pandan since she got dentistry like siyesly goi pehal jauh sangat.
since it is early in the morning, we send her off with our morning breath and bed face. Sorry goi haha!!after that, minggu kuliah start! yesss my fav part.
I remember the first day as an archi student, I was super nervous and felt like first day at school kot!! rasa nak angkut ayah teman sekali . Tapi ofkos tu buang tebiat namanya. Alhamdulillah, Mimi ( Bestfriend time tamhidi) ada sekali, so the feeling simmered down ( a little huh)
Arriving at the fourth floor inside Tamhidi building ( ye aku masih di situ kawan2) , it was my second time there. First time datang time tu nak pinjam cellotape masa tamhidi (teringat time tu kelakar giler keyh, aku assume budak archi time tu mesti ada segalanya, which turn out to be true hahaa).
Getting inside a huge room with many drawing and house model terrified me like Do i need to draw that (there was an amazing horse drawing, gila aku nak lukis tu, omg)? Am i expected to build that huge forest plan? Should i touch that amazingly build house model?
So we walk around the huge room, with other first year ( aku rasa sebab dorang pun muka eksaited), checking out everything. Got one book with lots of drawing inside of it (lagi lah aku seram gitu), few sculpture that makes my mouth goes ooohhhhh ahhhh amazing amazing , in my mind can i change to foodbio please please, im scared... :P
And few moments later , we gathered together at the end of the room to do some briefing session.
There were two separated seating area. For girls and boys. We sit together with people that i dont know who but they look a bit matured and older and santai , so i assumed my senior la kot, takkan pekerja tamhidi pulak lol. They were laughing and chatting among each other, aku pulak macam cicak sesat dekat situ like should i play with my phone or start chatting with other people (aku know few people je since dekat tamhidi aku ni bukan peramah suka hello2 orang so batchmates sendiri tak kenal hahaha)
So i took another option and is to ushar the boys section(maigod gatal kau na) but i should know who i will be working with
borak2 dengan mimi and an. Janna and ana and alia duk belakang aku (rasanya)
Then, the room become silence. I look in front and ohhh group of smart looking people came in . Of course this are the lecturers because they look muchh older than the seniors lulz and they look pretty serious.
The briefing start and i didnt focus much since i kept staring at the horse drawing behind them. still cant move on hahhahhaa. Then, there were small award ceremony centu kot. For those who manage to get dean list and improvement award bla,bla i don't know this people but well you are my idols now so better watch out coz i will be staring at you 24h (psiko siaaa).
Pastu ada briefing on PAM visits. Basically the first week there is no lecture or so on.
Free je. After the briefing session we are free to walk around. We got few task to do .
I'm not gonna explain all the details since aku buat apa je pun ahahah
Happy face while downloading korean drama. Yelah tamhidi kan internet berdesup je
our cute studio master , Madam Elin. She taught us design, one of the core subject in archi
Our studio (ni 2 bulan lepas masuk. Gambar awal takdokkk)Okay cuti aidiladha pun bermula right after my first week here. projek first. homemade a1 carrier apa tah yang patut aku panggil. Drawing bag rasanya. First task under graphic subject. Peh memandangkan aku terlalu enjoy cuti and makan daging lembu tanpa pikir projek, so hasilnya agak sedih dan boleh jadi stok gelak aku di kala kesunyian huhuuu.. AND TAKDE GAMBAR SEBAB AKU SEDIH DENGAN HASIL AKU SENDIRI LULZ. ( sepatutnya aku amik gambar , whatever the product i produced, still my product, my work, kena bangga , ish past nana is gedik sungguh)
pastu few days after that, got our first project for design. God , pening gila kot awal-awal dapat. Im a type of person who cant focus for so long. kena buat something nak distract diri. So, lepas je project briefing aku nganga like wut de hek, apa madam cakap tadi hahahaha . Lepas tu ada next briefing aku pegi JPJ lagi aku tak faham.Nasib grupmate ada fuuhhh. Oh ya, Alhamdulillah dah dapat lesen. Boleh dah aku challenge michael shumaccer (centu ke eja) drift dekat kampung batu muda ni. Konfem dia nangis tengok skil brek aku yang berpontensi menjahanamkan kereta.
Oh yeah back to the story, our first project is to design a vest and headgear based on master architect assigned to us. Aku dapat richard meier. i was like who de heck is this guy? So few weeks given to do background study on this guy. This guy is one of modern architect. boleh search sendiri hoho. Oh ya our first design project is a group work. So dapat grup dengan MImi (yeayy) pastu few people yang memang kenal (syaq, syera) orang baru (ana,aqeela iman, iffah dayat,hafiz). they were all amazing people. Sometimes aku ni kadang2 cam lembabs sikit tapi they are such nice person. sabar je. ish.
Design vest and headgear banyak kali kena rejek like aku dah give up nak hidup lulzz.
First time tidur lambat sampai 2-3 pagi, kepala aku sakit giler. Feel like exploded at any time. Ye lah newbie kan tak biasa tidur lambat. hhahaha
but the best part of this project is kitorang kena present projek ni dekat luar,bukan dekat studio. which means dapat jalan2!!! So kitorang present di janda baik. Janda baik one of the best memory time first sem. Siyes cakap. This are the time where we strengthen our bond and friendship. Starting to know my classmates more and MAKAN DURIAN BANYAK GILA. DURIAN FREE PULAK TU. GEESHHH. AND MAKAN SEDAP PULAK TU. KAWAN2 AKU SEBENARNYA BERBAKAT MASAK WEH. ZAUJ ZAUJAH GOALS BETUL.
And first time aku pergi kem yang santai and sempoi where our tentative tak ketat langsung . so much funnnnn. Sukati je kau nak terjun sungai bila. We explore few place and memang cantik-cantik belaka, subhanallah.
gigih do amik gambar tengah panas demi sebuah lighting yang menarik (ahhh aku still rupa cam ayam bakar bbq malam tu , waeee)
Okay before i went to Janda Baik, i participate in Pertandingan Pidato Dwibahasa, Time tu tak bizi sangat so aku curik sikit masa masuk pertandingan tu with my lovely ex hosmet , Ain. And unexpectedly Alhamdulillah i manage to get first place. Terkezut mak
muka masing2 eyebag tebal nak mati hahahaAlhamdulillah, new experience for me. Tapi duit yang menang tu aku belanja macam kena rasuk. maigod lupa nak masuk dalam tabung kawen. nyesal nyesal
Pastu lepas gi janda baik, aku pergi MY FIRST CONCERT. YE VERY FIRST. DEKAT USIM (tu yang takleh blah). anjuran iceps. ada FAIZALL TAHIRRRRRR (FANGIRL GILER), HYPERACT (MAIGOSHHH TIME PERSEMBAHAN DORANG AKU BOLEH PULAK SAKIT PERUT. WHY~~) , ramli sarip (dia puisi weh, puisiiiiii), voice of color (sort of like acapella group centu, im amazeee), and manyy more. Went to the concert with my roomate. Good thing about this concert is girls and boys section are seperated. That's how all concert should be. Yes we do sing along together with the singer but not loud enough for the opposite sex to hear. But the boys bila Wanie (yang nyanyi dgn juzzthin tu apa tah lagu dia)ada ,laki kemain over noks. Aku tampar sekoq sekoq sedap gak haha.
with le roomates. This concert were impromptu decision lol. from left mili, NANA GOJES, kirin and tempe eh Mira hahaahokay dah dah lettuwww enjoy. proceed to our second project which is Mashrabiya. This project is quite interesting since this is my first time hearing such word. What is Mashrabiya? go search for urself. aku malaszz
ye la aku explain. Mashrabiya tu actually came from arabs and use as sort of protection gitu , to protect from dust and as air regualator gitu. Juga sesuai untuk rumah yang ada perempuan tinggal. Menjaga maruah centu. okay kenapa aku type dalam nada malas ni haahaha.
The word "mashrabiya" comes from an Arabic root meaning the "place of drinking," which was adapted to accommodate the first function of the screen: "the place to cool the drinking water."- SOURCEThis project is also a group work. My team members are Mimi (again lol jodoh game is strong right here) and Acap . Alhamdulillah one month and a half working with them is amazing. Everyone contribute each to their part and of course there were bumps in working together but the end product is a proud moment for us .
(picture taken by madam wan, my awhsome lecturer , she is such a goallsss)
awkward-didnt-get-enough-sleep-kinda-look. Senyum paksa habis hahahaI suppose i had the full image of the mashrabiya but never mind (too lazy to transfer) . But people were afraid of our mashrabiya like wut de hek? is not a killer mashrabiya. yeah we had pointy and sharp mashrabiya screen but it is innovative and no other people do it like us so , er, nice la kan?
Okay we have done our second project. During second project, i got a super huge news. I was chosen as one of the construction worker for Solar Decathlon Middle East Competition in dubai. USIM are the only university in Malaysia selected to be in the final round (UTM as partner since usim is still new to this competition). Here is the funny part, Madam Elin, she asked in our group wassap " does anyone interested in cooking and willing to cook?"
No one give their name and i was like "MAIGOODDD I LOVE COOKINGGGG YESHH THIS IS THE TIME I WILL UNLEASH MY TALENT IN RUINING DISHES"
so i give my name. She need only 3 name. So 2 others follow my step afterward.
What i didnt know is, the cooking team is needed for the competition in Dubai ,2018. So, basically i was chosen to cook for the team (alhamdulillah, i hope they didnt get food poisining tu jewwww)
For me it is funny since i thought madam need that name i dont know for me to cook for her kenduri ke or nanti ada pertandingan masak ke, but it is bigger than that. thanks madam for the opportunity :)))))
Hai, im aina, ur future baju korporat model ( this picture was taken for sdme profile)Alright moving on to our last design project, SHELTER FOR TRAVELER. One of my fav task!!! This task required us to design shelter (smaller than regular home). i mean this is the reason im signing up for architecture. designing home bebehhhhh
Before we start designing, first the site of our shelter. Yeah of course we need site. or else where our house going to sit? takkan terapung pulak (why suddenly emo nana lol)
so we went to our first site visit. The site visit is interesting since site tu dalam usim je ahahha. Next to Faculty of Economy and Muamalat. Got huge lake and small forest . I was shock yelah never thought usim is that huge siap ada taman negara sendiri hahaha
Guys whats up with the awkward pose hahahaahahaha (my friends are funny people )
Clear and pristine looking lake. Goodjob usim for taking care of it very well.
Me looking super serious. actually i was drawing some tree and it look really weird (duh talentless nana). My friend face looks like he was holding his fart for so long. Dude just release it, this forest is huge, no one going to hear it (except me coz im behind him). okay friend im kidding im kidding.This project took around 2 month and more , maybe. sorry im bad with date. (and dating too)
We need to study our concept for this shelter, our client characteristic and many more.
In between that, i also need to juggle with my additional subject which is co-Curriculum , english debate. The final project are toughest one. We need to find money on our own since usim didnt give us single cent. Soooo many things happen, i cried a lot (since im the leader for this final project,so the burden is bigger) but alhamdulillah with the help of other members of the team, i managed to surpass all that, and we managed to do our fp with a Bangggg.
lol akak2 muka lagi happy ni pehal hahaha . These kids are from Baitul Mahabbah. Click on the link to know more about them :) Alhamdulillah amazing experience
Okay we also had a faculty dinner. Yeah my first dinner during degree. I wore make up that night (wore everyday to class but this one with eyeshadow and blusher and everything so its kinda rareeeee). Im so excited. Put my high heels on (wedges actually but who caresss), and blouse like neelofa gitu, off we go to nilai convention hall (kot i cant remember haha) . Buttttt when i arrive there, cam sedih sikit sebab duduk hujung huhuhu ( jauh dari meja buffet tu yang sedih haahahha).
Alhamdulillah still enjoying it with silent comedy (weh senior aku kelakar, nak kenal boleh pm haha)
and dikir barat (perfomed by our lovely younger family member, engineering student, newest course here in usim). there was some award ceremony and guess what, i didnt get anyhting hahaha. not even lucky draw. whyyyyyy (takpela at least kenyang sobs sobs)
you cant see my makeup yallzz since it melts away due to long walking from bus to the dinner venue ahhahaha . (and i didnt bring the makeup with me so i was bare face the whole night)
my pretty friend (except me , i look like sweating cat here, panas weh, aircond mana aircondddd)In early December, we got anak angkat program. Okay this one pun best jugakkkk. Program under FKAB. Area jolobu , negeri sembilan .
It was my first time there. venue in kampung area (tapi still ada line. thanks umobile!!)
i got pair of grandparent as my family angkat and all i can say is , they are like my blood and flesh wehhh. they treat me nicely (along with my other 'sisters' haha). They feed me very very very well kot (dorang risau kitorang lapar, there was never the time we are hungry. kenyang all day)
with my tok and wan. Ugghhh miss them. Havent contact them for so long. jahatnya aku
with my sisterssssss. i swear theyre nicest and happiest people ever. from left syera and kak nana.(nama sama dengan aku, bila orang panggil dia, kadang2 aku terperasan, hmm malu siot ahhaa)
my first time hiking (Bukit batu sawa) and all i can say is CRAZYYYYYY . GILAAAA SUSAH NAK PANJAT GOSH I REALLY APPRECIATE THE COMFORT OF MY LIFE RIGHT NOW. oh yeah, im the last one to arrive. But they are all supportive. the senior, my friends, even pakcik renjer hutan tu pun gila support gila2. i like i like. ( in this picture me and janna)Alhamdulillah the experience in Jelebu was so nice. I love it so much :") rasa tak nak balik weh ngadap projek. makan ayam masak lemak cili api hari2 pun takpe.
okay back to reality, struggling to finish our last project which contribute 60% to our mark. huge kannn (under subject design)
Yada yada, submitting my design and getting rejected. consultation and redesign everything. Changing concept and everything. I felt the pressure and almost break down. But i said to myself " you have choosen this path, so put your heads up, get tough and move. there is no time for you to relax or taking ur sweet time"
Sometimes i wondered to myself, what if i didnt choose architecture, then what will i do, what happen to me, am i going to experienced the same thing i do in archi?
I believe whatever Allah give me right now have it own reason. Right now im more relax and feeling more happier.
okay sorry for the random rambling.
Before we submit our final project, we went to another site visit (under construction and technology subject).
we went to parliament renovation site. The interior design inside is breathtakingly mesmerizing. but we cant take picture inside unless it is authorize so takpela huhu
with all of my classmates. everyone have their own unique characteristic and attitude . thats what i love about them.
with our tour guide (2 kids gaiz, 2)
2 days after our site visit, it is project submission day!!
the picture are all inside my phone and all i can say for my project submission is RELIEVEEEEEEEEEE.
i want to continue writing but this post took me around 2 days to write since imma lazy girl hahaha. So thats all maybe. will be continue after i came back from my holiday, (which 2 weeks after that)
thank you for reading this post and please dont judge my silly writing because this is my style and i would like to keep it that way. Im not exposing my privacy or whatsoever but i believe my blog as sort of my personal journey diary (my instagram too).. so thats why i put lot of picture . maybe my children will read this blog and will say " omg my mom is such a weird person "
eh okay taknak bagi anak baca la. malu siot